Insomia!!!

Its a ‘SLEEPY DAY’
Didnt slp well last nite
Wake up at 1plus, 2 plus,4 plus and 5
Ended up yawning at work the whole morning

Tml on afternoon shift but i kept on thinking that tml on morning shift
Doesnt wanna stay at hm
So ended up asking leng n sis for dinner
Went to PS kopitiam for dinner
As usual we ate the mini fishhead steamboat
Today something different
Its that pricilia join us for dinner
But she didnt eat
Oni drink starbuck coffee lor
Realli funny gal
Every thing that i do just seem to be my daily routine
But since morning when i woke up
Just felt that i lost something
This is the first time i dont feel like going to work in the morning
Kept on telling myself to wake up stop thinking Abt it..hehe

Has been waiting for an ans
Wanted ya to speak up
But y u rather choose to pretend that nothing has happened
Then wats the point of calling?
No explaination? Where went wrong?
Arent we supposed to find out where the problem lies?
Haiz..Hiaz..Hiaz…
Iszzit quiet or mute? IRRITATING!!!

As expected!

Have a lotz of things to say
Dont noe where should i start
My brain now is ???????
Why things became like this today??
Can someone please tell me why
Did i make the wrong decision?
I am juz someone who doesnt wan my frene to be say
If i am happi but my frene is not i dont wan it this way
Can someone understand me?

Went to help my dad this morning
Had been thinking the whole morning
cannot take it anymore
I decided to put an end to the relationship
We shouldnt have started
Its a wrong decision although we r both the innocent party
I can oni put 1 word in wat i am feeling now and its ‘TIRED’!!!!
Why am i the one who kept on crying?
Do i wan it?
I cant even control myself
Friends treat me this way
And its not oni 1
Pple told me that its not worth it becoz they r the 1 who r not treasuring u
Why should i cried becoz of them
They r rite!
But i am the 1 who hurt them first
I deserved this
If this is wat u wana get from me
I am willing to give up everything
I lost this so call ‘GAME’
I am just not strong enough to except all this
I guess its enough
Dont wana be a crown anymore
Talking to pple who doesnt even wana see me
Am i stupid?
Am i idiot?
Why use to be close,best,good frene now turn out to be stranger
Looks like in my dictionary there is no such word as best friend
To me they r just bull shit

Talk to him?
Is there anything to talk abt?
I guess no
And guess he is tired of those nonsense that i kept on having ba
Probably leaving is the best solution for both party
At least other can feel happier
And for us life still got to go on
Wat to do
Not meant to be means not meant to be
Force to be together its tiring

Wanna thank especially to leng
You have been with me all this while
Realli appreciate it
Feel much better talking to leng,kim,anthony and leslie
Thank for chatting with me
Telling so much thing
At least i still got someone to turn to
Some friends to be there for me
JESSIE WANNA SAY ‘THANK YOU SO MUCH’!
Muackz! I just love you guys!

1 week at Mount Alvernia

Hmm.. Finally i join mount Alvernia le..lolx..
I enjoy myself there this 1 week
But i find myself more like a hotel service staff rather than a staff nurse
More like a nanny than a staff nurse
Beside doing dressing and giving medication
Guess other than that i am just like working in a hotel

This hospital is so much different than when i work in TTSH
There is oni 1 staff nurse in charge
And she is the oni 1 who is going to pass the whole ward report to the next shift staff
I guess this is not easy although there is oni 21 bed in the ward
And the most stressful thing is that i am going to learn to pass report tml??
Alamah!! I haven even familiar with the hospital lor
Haven do my 2 weeks orientation lor..

But i love this ward because i get to see those cute cute babies everyday
And staff there is veri friendly too..
The oni thing is that sometime u will get bored when there is little patient
Probably in few years down the road i may say the same thing as vonny
She said that she is sick of the ward
She find herself more like a waitress than a staff nurse
Guess she is leaving soon after her contract le..
And i oni heard that she is not the oni one who wanted to leave
?? Nvm dont bother i just do my part
When free just pop by nursery to feed the babies
I seriously enjoy it!
They are so cute that i wanna bring them home lor
especially few days ago there are 2 newborn twins..
The elder sister is damn cute!!!!
But they went ack indonesia ytd le..sob sob!!

And last week my baby niece was born there
In Mount A and admitted in my ward
So i manage to be the first 1 in the family to carry her..lol
K la.. In the next few weeks guess i will be veri busy le..
Shall write soon!!