Hate the probation period!

Still left 4 more months to end this proation period
But i seem to start getting scared of the result
Things doesnt seem to be good
Or am i too sensitive?
StaRted to get stress
Care abt wat colleague say
Are they talking abt me?
Am i slow?
Did i trouble them?
Why i took such a long time to learn?
By now i supposed to be the incharge
Why till now i am not?
Whenever i go to work i am scared
Wat should i do?
Have been telling myself dont think so much
But now my tears is rolling down
Wanna talk to someone
But who can i approach?
Dont wan papa to worry
If talk to keegan it also doesnt seem to help much ba
Hiaz..

Tml uncle is going for his spinal operation le
All of us is worried
Soya bean stall business who is going to help?
Who is going to look after uncle when he come home?
I got so many why,who,how..
Head pain ah..headache headache

First Friend who got married!

Has been helping veron as her sister for 2 days le
Its my first experience as sister
Its veri fun
Somemore got handsome brother’s to see..lol
On sat i got up veri early
Took a cab down to veron house with jennifer
Reach her house saw the most beautiful veron
She really look so lovely

Went to adrian house than back to her house again
Raining..so everything seem to be cock up
Somemore got extra car last min from adrian frene
So everything like veri messy
The journey to adrian house from veron house is realli damn long
From Tampines to bukit Punjung lor
Anyway the journey still quite fun ah
Listen to those brothers talking rubbish

Hmm..and the dinner ytd i got to see most of my classmate
The feeling is realli good
My poly mentor Gwendolyn is also there lo
Everyone had been chatting abt our job in hospital
Comparing hospital..lolx
Last of all we r all there to give veron our blessing
Although the whole wedding is not realli well organise
BuT Happi marriage!!
All of us are happi for u!!

Insomia!!!

Its a ‘SLEEPY DAY’
Didnt slp well last nite
Wake up at 1plus, 2 plus,4 plus and 5
Ended up yawning at work the whole morning

Tml on afternoon shift but i kept on thinking that tml on morning shift
Doesnt wanna stay at hm
So ended up asking leng n sis for dinner
Went to PS kopitiam for dinner
As usual we ate the mini fishhead steamboat
Today something different
Its that pricilia join us for dinner
But she didnt eat
Oni drink starbuck coffee lor
Realli funny gal
Every thing that i do just seem to be my daily routine
But since morning when i woke up
Just felt that i lost something
This is the first time i dont feel like going to work in the morning
Kept on telling myself to wake up stop thinking Abt it..hehe

Has been waiting for an ans
Wanted ya to speak up
But y u rather choose to pretend that nothing has happened
Then wats the point of calling?
No explaination? Where went wrong?
Arent we supposed to find out where the problem lies?
Haiz..Hiaz..Hiaz…
Iszzit quiet or mute? IRRITATING!!!

As expected!

Have a lotz of things to say
Dont noe where should i start
My brain now is ???????
Why things became like this today??
Can someone please tell me why
Did i make the wrong decision?
I am juz someone who doesnt wan my frene to be say
If i am happi but my frene is not i dont wan it this way
Can someone understand me?

Went to help my dad this morning
Had been thinking the whole morning
cannot take it anymore
I decided to put an end to the relationship
We shouldnt have started
Its a wrong decision although we r both the innocent party
I can oni put 1 word in wat i am feeling now and its ‘TIRED’!!!!
Why am i the one who kept on crying?
Do i wan it?
I cant even control myself
Friends treat me this way
And its not oni 1
Pple told me that its not worth it becoz they r the 1 who r not treasuring u
Why should i cried becoz of them
They r rite!
But i am the 1 who hurt them first
I deserved this
If this is wat u wana get from me
I am willing to give up everything
I lost this so call ‘GAME’
I am just not strong enough to except all this
I guess its enough
Dont wana be a crown anymore
Talking to pple who doesnt even wana see me
Am i stupid?
Am i idiot?
Why use to be close,best,good frene now turn out to be stranger
Looks like in my dictionary there is no such word as best friend
To me they r just bull shit

Talk to him?
Is there anything to talk abt?
I guess no
And guess he is tired of those nonsense that i kept on having ba
Probably leaving is the best solution for both party
At least other can feel happier
And for us life still got to go on
Wat to do
Not meant to be means not meant to be
Force to be together its tiring

Wanna thank especially to leng
You have been with me all this while
Realli appreciate it
Feel much better talking to leng,kim,anthony and leslie
Thank for chatting with me
Telling so much thing
At least i still got someone to turn to
Some friends to be there for me
JESSIE WANNA SAY ‘THANK YOU SO MUCH’!
Muackz! I just love you guys!

1 week at Mount Alvernia

Hmm.. Finally i join mount Alvernia le..lolx..
I enjoy myself there this 1 week
But i find myself more like a hotel service staff rather than a staff nurse
More like a nanny than a staff nurse
Beside doing dressing and giving medication
Guess other than that i am just like working in a hotel

This hospital is so much different than when i work in TTSH
There is oni 1 staff nurse in charge
And she is the oni 1 who is going to pass the whole ward report to the next shift staff
I guess this is not easy although there is oni 21 bed in the ward
And the most stressful thing is that i am going to learn to pass report tml??
Alamah!! I haven even familiar with the hospital lor
Haven do my 2 weeks orientation lor..

But i love this ward because i get to see those cute cute babies everyday
And staff there is veri friendly too..
The oni thing is that sometime u will get bored when there is little patient
Probably in few years down the road i may say the same thing as vonny
She said that she is sick of the ward
She find herself more like a waitress than a staff nurse
Guess she is leaving soon after her contract le..
And i oni heard that she is not the oni one who wanted to leave
?? Nvm dont bother i just do my part
When free just pop by nursery to feed the babies
I seriously enjoy it!
They are so cute that i wanna bring them home lor
especially few days ago there are 2 newborn twins..
The elder sister is damn cute!!!!
But they went ack indonesia ytd le..sob sob!!

And last week my baby niece was born there
In Mount A and admitted in my ward
So i manage to be the first 1 in the family to carry her..lol
K la.. In the next few weeks guess i will be veri busy le..
Shall write soon!!

 

BE MY LOVE!

This is the latest song by SPEED that i loved

Getting bored each day!!

Was getting bored day by day le
Everyday have been think wat should i do tml?
Definately first few days the feeling is damn shiok de
But after that i started to get crazy le

But ytd i did something that i have not been doing for many years le
Its baking..Leng was on holiday so she join me to bake too
But our muffin didnt turn out to be wat i expected
Baby and leng sais its taste nice but the texture is not there
Veri disappointed!!
But nvm shall try it again next time”)
Spent the whole day baking and cooking
Feel so fullfilled..lol
At least i didnt waste my day ‘DREAMING’..hehe

Was chatting with Hazel just now
This silly silly friend of mine just so cute la
Went holiday with best friend
Came back injuried, went for operation
Telling me that its her best friend who save her
Now tell me they are no longer frene anymore?
Though i dont like her best friend but i am still her friend
see her in such situation i feel sad too
Coz she just reminds of me ‘LAST TIME’
Now i no longer treasure friendship so much le
People who have know me should know ba
Dont wish to say again
Wat is so good about friendship?
If the friend dont treasure u den wat is the point of treasuring her?
Cried a few days and tell yourself thats it i am not going to hold on to it
Probably this will make u feel better..
Friends is just part and parcel of life
I guess in life only family wont leave u when u r in trouble

Lets not talk abot those sad sad stuff
This few days has been influence by leng
Started to listen to SPEED song le
It realli bring back memories
Like those stupid stuff that me n my sis will do in front of tv when we watch SPEED concert performance
Wahahaha!!

The ‘fIRST TIME’ experience at chalet!!

Went keegan baby niece, Renes chalet
Stay there for 3 days
Realli enjoy myself alotz with sooo many cute cute babies
Quite of sian mu keegan family
Sooo many cousin (20plus)
Sooo many niece and nephew (so many till i don noe how to count le)
Sooo many aunty, uncle
Sooo many till i oni heard all his cousin calling him gor gor ba..lol
So can imagine how old is he lor..wahahahaha!!!
When i first saw them abit uneasy
but then after that i am more comfortable when his cousin Dona and Lina started chatting with me
Luckily i met some during chinese new year
If not i’m like so odd there
But then come to think of it even if i dont noe any of them keegan is always STICKING with me lor..lolx..
But then i enjoyed his company
Telling me wat he went through when he was young at Pasir Ris park
I am veri happy coz he open up to me
Whatever it is all that is in the past le
In the future whaTever happened i’m always going to be there for ya
Thanx for not neglecting me at the chalet
And Happy Birthday Baby Renes!!!

Last day @ Far East

Hi My dearest Friend
U r the 1st to view my blog ohh..
Nice background?? Lolx..
It has been 2 years since i last blog le..
Definitely i cant type all the things that happened in this 2 years..
But wat realli bothers me few months ago has finally come to an end
I told myself that i am not going to wake up n cried, before slp n cried
The feeling is damn shit
I have let it go..
Its over, over n over
Now i have uncle Keegan to take care of me
This feeling is damn shiok de lor..
Wahahahahaha!!!!

Just gotten my result not long ago..
Finally i graduated
Got my Diploma
After 4 years of struggling ( Laughter and Sadness)
This feeling of joy cant be explain..
At this time i wish my 2 buddy all the best in their final paper
Good Luck!! Jessie know that u guys can do it!!
Jia you! Jia You!!

Have been working for Far East Organization for the past 1 mths
Its a very new work scope for me..
Get to interacted with Property Agents
Visit new Condos ( Started to love Condo..hEhe!! So is my Baby going to provide me one??)
From now i am going to SLACK for at least 2 weeks
Hope that i can get a job in 1 mth time.. ( Coz bank going to dry up soon liao..)

Btw my dear ah mei
Just saw ya blog ah..
Eventhough i am in honeymoon mood i will not forget u oh..
K la..Hope u get in MDIS soon alright..